can't take it.

I know everyone has those days were it seems like Satan is pushing every insecurity you have in your face. this week has been that way for me, I hate that he knows those things buried deep and uses them against you. The thing is i know its satan and i know he's trying to get me, why am i letting it get me down when i know whats going on...

Ringa Bling Bling!

when we bought my ring we got the insurance that everyone should get (it has saved us tons) so a requirement for this insurance is every six months you are suppose to take it in so they can check it out. well we kept forgetting so it was more like 8 months! finally i took it in saturday and she looked it over and said oh we need to fix the band. i guess the white gold was wearing and it turns yellowish when it does so she takes it and says it will be done thursday.  thats along time without it so i wore the fax one i got at walmart i went with that because its a 10 dollar fake ring it better not turn my finger green but it did! plus my fingers have gained weight so it was tight and uncomfortable so i couldn't wait to get mine back plus i love my ring. finally its thursday and i go get it and when se un wrapped it i was so excited it was so sparkly and shiny and awesome! i still every once in awhile look down at it and the sparklyness makes me smile! me and devin decided that it looks better now then when we actually bought it! i've been trying to take a good picture of it so you i'll never forget it. (i'm obsessed sorry) anyways long babble short it was defiantly worth the wait and i will no longer be washing dishes or my face with it on so that it stays sparkly longer!

pictures don't do it justice! ok i'm done now! 

dream analyst

yea, its official I'm a horrible blogger, I'm justifying that i really don't have much to blog about. i don't have children i can write about and share them growing up. so all i really have is work and a class so really I'm boring! but I'll still try to do better. 

So a few weeks ago Devin was called to be the Young Men's president in our ward. when the bishop called us in and extended the call to Devin. i smirked cause i wasn't the bit surprised! i knew he was getting that called when they released the old president. Devin is already such a great president, he works so well with the boys in the ward! He is gone a little more than before, with meetings and mutual and everything.  I guess I didn't realize how much I missed him when he was in his meetings until I had a dream last night . A horrible dream in fact because I felt in this dream. Has anyone ever had that when you wake up and can feel the effects of your dreams? In this dream Devin and I had just moved in to a nice big house that we bought and in our new ward Devin was assigned a non active family to home teach. well they loved him (who wouldn't) so they started inviting Devin to their family outings and activities and not me. so he would leave for hours and i was sitting in this big house all by myself. i remember in the dream pleading for him not to go  i said to him " Devin you were just with them the past two days, please don't leave me tonight."  the family he home taught was turning him against me saying i was being selfish and needy and he deserved better -- like there daughter. so they were trying to destroy our marriage in hope that he would leave for their daughter. i felt so alone i couldn't stand it. i also felt anger to this imaginary dream family for hating me and trying to pull Devin away. i finally woke up and all i was feeling in the dream was still there. i felt alone and hurt and angry. i told Devin his dream and he said that is " I would never leave you, i am yours forever" it was comforting but i still felt horrible about this dream and didn't like the way i felt. this morning we were emailing back and forth and he asked what should we do tonight. i said i don't know what do you feel like doing. he said I've been so busy this week with meetings and school i haven't had time to think of anything besides that. then it clicked. duh. he has been gone this week for meetings. that's why i dreamt the way i did. i missed him. and even though i didn't feel abandoned or alone like in my dream i missed him while he was away. i told Devin i figured out my dream and he being a stink  said " this is how you feel about my calling" .... No i love that he is committed and loves his calling and serves 100%!  I LOVE IT! i guess I've just been missing him when he is gone and i sit at home alone! but I'm not angry about it! i love Devin so much! he is such an amazing Young men's president and a worthy priesthood holder and I'm so grateful for him. he is the best thing that has ever happened in my life! 

words can't begin to describe how much i love him!

How to stay motivated

I need some major help on staying motivated. i need to start exercising but it seriously only lasts tops 3 weeks. when i was needing to get in shape for college ball my mom had to pay for a personal trainer to get me in shape cause i couldn't buckle down and do it my self.... any tips, suggestions ANYTHING is greatly appreciated!

Getting Back to it!

I have been inspired to start updating my blog more regularly even though no one will read it! haha it will be nice to have it i'm sure in the years to come. to have a place that are fully of the memories and adventures life will give us.

so i guess we play catch up.
the last post was my 10 day count down to get married! and those ten days everything went smoothly the months before i had already broke down twice in a stress overload so that week i didnt care about a thing, i was just ready to be married all ready! April 19th i woke up to storm clouds and raining, i'm not going to lie i was upset i didnt want the pictures to be ruined. having good pictures was the one thing i really cared about!  but through prayers by the time we got out it was the most perfect day anyone could ask for! the pictures and the spring flowers were amazing! i've never seen the salt lake temple that beautiful before. at the reception the soft served ice cream machine outlet didnt give it enough power to work so it was a good thing we had ordered brownies!

two weeks we got back to normal and were ready to start our lives together. the summer has been great! I'm so gratefully we got married when we did. having the whole summer together without any school was a blast!  i can't believe that we've almost been married for 5 months! its gone by so fast! and its weird cause it feels like we've been married for a lot longer! probably cause i see him a lot more than when we were married!

 LOVE that he's mine forever!!! 

 another one of my favorites! 

 My parents are such a blessing and have been there through everything! i don't think i'll ever be able to repay them for all they've given me! 

 LOVE ALL MY SISTERS!!! 

 one of my all time favorite pictures of the bunch! 

 This was the exact spot devin proposed to me so we had to get one with us married. i never would have thought i'd be married yet. but i'm so glad i found the most amazing guy and will be married to him forever! 

 so happy that families are forever!